The new era

Today’s day was different. Again. My life became full of difference. Why? I don’t know.

I was just sitting during break at school. But sitting with no life inside me. Exhausted. Even though I’d been sleeping for over 8 hours at night. Worn down. Literally drained.

I was thinking about my past, about beautiful moments I had spent among my mates, sitting, chatting, doing many things friends usually do. Maybe not friends. I’d never had any real friend. So let’s call em just mates.

But… I realised one vital fact. Each time they had spent more than 2 hours with me, they had become really tired, while I had been still full of life, entertained and energetic. Why? Looks like I… I HAD BEEN TAKING THEIR ENERGY.

Suddenly a weird and brilliant thought dawned on me. What if I can still drain energy from others?

So exhausted was I, that I decided to try. I closed my eyes slowly and thought some words I would say these times when I was meeting with my friends. I imagined that very vividly. Then…

I felt a cold shiver on my back. I opened my eyes and noticed with amazement that I received a big portion of energy. Sudden injection. My eyes opened very widely.  I felt very dizzy as well, so I was lucky I was sitting. My mate I drained energy from said “I’m feeling strangely, what did you do?”.

I’ve never been keen on believing in supernatural powers. Ghosts? No. Demons? Maybe. But not in this world. Miracles? There are no miracles. You have what you deserve. Nothing more, nothing less..

But today’s event was… was something truly new to me. I’ve heard about energetic vampires, but… Do they exist? I’ve always doubted.

My example gives me a lot to think about.

And I don’t want to drink blood today. Maybe I bounced back, and won’t need it anymore. But I doubt it. I’m gonna return to doing this as soon as any problem appears… Or moon reaches its full 🙂

I don’t want to do it. But it seems I’ll have to. I’m hooked. Never wanted to realise that but… I’m addicted. And I can’t do anything about that.

Or maybe the energy drained mentally from others will be enough? Time will tell…



Hey. My name is Jackie.

I used to think I’m a ordinary human. Like my parents. Aunts. Classmates. But I was mistaken.

My story is fully authentic, It’s not fiction. We experience too much fiction these days. I said to myself that I would create something unusual, but still real. And my story is so.

I wouldn’t call my life easy. Of course, probably 80% of people would say that their life is much worse that others. And I realise that many people have worse problems that I do. That seems normal.

But that’s not a point. I’ve always tried to be unusual. I’ve never done anything radical to ensure my uniqueness. But it seems it came just itself, without my noticing or willing.

And this uniqueness fits perfectly my problems. Problems that I won’t introduce you to. Not yet. Other people find various ways to cope with their troubles. Alcohol. Lame. Drugs. Lame. Cigarettes. Lame. Lame, because they are everywhere. Just look through window. I didn’t want to be like others. I don’t want it. I will never want.

One day I cut myself incidentally. The cut was dirty; I decided to suck it. That’s perfectly normal and automatical behavior. But in that point the normality runs out. Such was the smell of this blood; such was it’s taste, wonderful, mouth-watering… I found my uniqueness. Oh, that’s not whole uniqueness I have. But it’s one of most vital I own.

You may think I’m a vampire. I’m not. I can see myself in a mirror. Vampires don’t exist. And I’m not a radical thoughtless Twilight fan that wants to be just like Edward. That sucks.

You may also think I’m insane. Now you’re a little more right. But only a little.

Ok. That was a short introduction. I won’t tell you all my secrets at once. Let’s create just a little air of mystery. Goodbye.